From mediocre dreams to "bigger than me" dreams

What is my direction in life, where am I headed, really?

I have been asking this question for a long time now. Ever since I finished my 1st year, actually. As I go through my major subjects, I still do not have any idea as to what career I will pursue in the future. What am I doing in my course? There’s a technical definition to it, but those technical, very direct words that “define” what my course is, completely confuses me, still. Yes, graduation is just a step away, three steps actually. I’m psyched about it, really. I have been dreaming of this moment ever since God knows when. I’m quite scared to face the real world, though.

My tita told me to call her once I graduate, she works in an advertising agency firm. Oh my God, I am so excited! (or agitated?) I did not know how to react. Is my future near? Is this what I have been dreaming of ever since I was a little girl? Doubt it. I wanted to be a cashier or a housewife before LOL, but now I want something else. Something bigger, something more fulfilling probably? Something I really want. 

From mediocre dreams to big dreams with a sense of greed and a yearning for success. What do I really want?

I guess I just have to keep in mind that I have to do what I love and I have to do it often. 

As cliche as it may probably sound

A chain is only as strong as its weakest link. Cliche, but it applies. Relationships are like chains, both of you are chained together in an everlasting love (?) and in a truly magical feeling of being together forever. Lol this is too cheesy for my life, but once one of you breaks away from this chain, there will not be any chain anymore. It takes two to tango, another cliche. To be honest, I feel like I’m being summoned into something that I’m not prepared to face. Do I dance to the beat of the tango or do I sit in one corner and ponder upon what life was like before? Do I break away or do I stay?

Definitely a quarter-life crisis.